“WHAT IF… What if true love left you? Not some ordinary high school romance, not some random jock boyfriend, not anyone at all replaceable. True love. The real deal. Your other half, your true soul’s match. What happens if he leaves?”

http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/nm_thestory.html

he just broke up with me

happens every day

the past couple days i have not been able to stop crying. i cant say that i dont know why, because there are plenty reasons in my life right now to make me cry but im not crying over those things, its the little things. i know what i am probably crying over the little things because im not ready to believe the big things. i just feel like im trapped in a room and i hate it. my life was so easy and uncomplicated and now everything is twisted upside down and i don’t know what to do. my dad leaves july 6 to go back to afghanistan and i really wish he would just stay here. every time he leaves and comes back he is even more on edge and he and my mom constantly argue. it never used to be like that. i was so lucky to have parents who loved each other and got along so great and now its not like that and i hate being home because i cant stand to be around it. im not one of those people who can deal with their own problems and talk about then. bring me anyone elses and i have no problem talking about it and helping them and trying to find a way to let them know everything this going to be ok. but i have no idea what to say to my mom because everything isnt going to be ok. it just makes me sad to think that these two people who were once so in love arent anymore. and that they had their whole lives planned out and wanted to grow old together and now they’ll be growing old with out each other and it hurts me so much to think about. i just wish i could escape life even for just a day to let all my worries disappear and to actually smile.